The Rich Witch

 I am a feeling sorter-outer. What that means is I am pretty tuned to myself from an objective perspective, and I work to sort out what I'm feeling and why as life unfolds through me.  I have a relationship with a woman where we exchange ideas and inspirations and, sometimes, personal things, but it seems (to me) like when I venture too far in a direction she doesn't approve of, she ghosts me for a while.  I can't really verify that's true, and I'm not sure she would think or admit she's doing that, but it seems like there's a lane we're meant to stay in, and I need to stay in that lane in order to remain in relationship.  This causes me some stress. I don't have a whole lot of active relationships with friends, but the ones I have I like to settle into and be myself and express who I am and how I am and what I think and not have guardrails up. And I want them to do the same.  Let me break down this actual interaction. She was texting me yesterday (b...

  I remember contemplating moving to the beach at one point and decided I didn’t want to because I didn’t want to take it for granted. This isn’t true of all natural phenomena with which I am deeply in love. But it seemed unlikely at the time I would live in sight of the beach and I knew-maybe without internal articulation-that I can construct a lot of barriers between myself and that with which I want to be in contact. And if I lived near a beach it could be very probable that I wouldn’t visit the beach. A lot of extraneous energy would become my barrier. It’s different with mountains. Mountains can be seen in the distance. For example, right now I gaze upon the Rocky Mountains, completely enamored with their beauty and unfamiliar line (as I’ve grown to know the Superstition Mountains intimately, but these are new). As I sit here in the back yard of a beautiful home, beautiful yard, and for my eyesight I see I field of sunflowers and baby aspens and then the mountains. Do I want t...