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The delusion of being in "receiving" energy

I'd like to talk about the delusion of being in receiving energy.  "Receiving" is definitely a thing. It is the yin to the yang, the magnetic to the electro, the feminine to the masculine. I notice when I'm in a receiving state - people offer me coffees, meals, massages seemingly out of nowhere. I love it.  The idea, though, of simply switching your mindset from doing to receiving is deceptive. Stopping the doing doesn’t automatically place you in receiving mode. It might let some of what you’ve put into motion finally land, but then there’s a cap. You still have to create new conditions—through doing—in order to open the next layer of receiving. Yes, it’s a paradox. Do more to receive more. This sounds dangerously close to the hustle you’re trying to escape. It all depends on what you’re doing. One of my most manifest students from the program I ran last year followed the teachings precisely and set herself up to receive ease and attention. Within the first month, s...

What's going on around here...

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  What is going on around here? Well, I’m tapping into the new and the old. I’m opening up more to my natural genius and offering it up. I’m speaking to the things that excite me, and I’m sharing what’s been on my mind. That means — rather than bitching about things behind the scenes — I’m openly offering solutions online to whoever may find them and find them valuable. I’m still talking about manifestation work because I love it. Guiding people toward their visions — and helping them optimize the potential fulfillment of this lifetime — will forever be my deep passion. I’m also talking about supporting spiritual teachers, coaches, and entrepreneurs to close the gaps in their delivery so their clients get the powerful results we all know they want and can have. What do these things have in common? Well, me. But more specifically: I’m good at seeing the gaps. I’m good at spotting where energy is leaking or going off. I can see where a limitation or pattern is playing out and where ...

They say money loves speed…so where’s the f***n money

“ Money loves speed.” I kept hearing this throughout my year of being the brokest I've ever been. My inner response was always "then, where's the fukn money?" I move quickly. I generate energy . I activate. I ignite. I stir the field and launch before most people finish journaling their intentions. I don't get stuck in perfectionistic stalled out loops, so… where's  the money? If the secret was speed, I should’ve been swimming in abundance. D espite the fast starts, the flow didn’t show .  A couple of weeks ago  I joined a mini course that invited me to call in money— three times a day for five days (I told you I'd let you know how it's going, so here we are).  I asked for loans, gifts, refinances, lottery tickets, you name it. I entered sweepstakes, Any way I could imagine asking for money directly or indirectly. Then I saw the pattern in myself (two weeks later): I’m incredible at ignition. I avoid follow-through I avoided the phone call about...

The truth is, I feel betrayed

I am a person who has believed for almost all of my adult life that the more I lean into my authenticity, the real me, the more the forces of the universe will meet me there. I haven't just believed it, I've lived it. In 2007 when I started learning energy work after seeking it out for several years, doing any work that felt mundane was suddenly intolerable to me. I quit all my jobs, was living in utter trust and freefall and suddenly received $10k from my Granny out of the blue. Each time I've stepped into the unknown, what I've needed to get by has risen up to catch me and carry me to my next phase. Then, last year, I did another trust leap. I quit my incredibly uninspiring job as a massage therapist after 24 years and put my full trust in my work that was changing lives and worked on building my business to support it.  I guess it depends on your perspective whether it worked or not. I had enough to get me to the next month, usually by begging and borrowing. I had a ...

This person holds my life in their hands. I’m exposed.

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Mindset work is the weakest sauce.  Dwelling in mindset work, which can include visualization, affirmations, reframes and the like, has an impact at the beginning of your journey. When you’re stepping into a new reality, your mind/imagination connects you with all that’s possible in that new reality. Then, when the rubber meets the road, you get to see where you really stand. I have recently been in a new mindset. I stepped out of my circumstances that had me looping around and through my deepest victim state. I am now in a space that is a HUGE manifestation for me. It’s in this new space that I get to ponder what’s next. I feel supported. I feel connected. I am having a love affair with money.  In my mind. Then, I entered a mini course where I was provoked to take action in the direction of calling in more money. From all over the place (I’m still doing it; I’ll let you know how it goes). Suddenly I was confronted with fear, extremely high sensation, contraction and old, loop...